"If you’re looking for reasons not to love someone, you’re probably going to find them but sometimes, we need to give in and let our hearts get what they deserve."

for every ten reasons i came up as to why i should see you, there's always another fifty behind the back of my stupid brain as to why i shouldnt. usually because i'll be playing with fire and that you'll break my heart. somehow. eventually.
but the heart always triumphs.

i like you like that. cheeky, essentially a bad boy, but a joy to be with. no matter how short time is. if only there's a way to quantify how much imiss you mm.

i must be crazy

"It takes no time to fall in love, but it takes you years to know what the love is"

my dear boy,
when i caught a glimpse of us in the mirror, it striked me pretty hard that here we are, imprefectly as ever, but look at us, we've really come quite far.
that really brought me back down to earth, and for a second, any doubts i had about the future vanished.
the three years plan/promise, we're halfway through. and honestly its not gonna get any easier, but much much harder.
they say love becomes greater and nobler in calamity.
i hope that is true for us.

crazy shift at beerfest yest. other than cashing out, really really loving it.
conservative parents, sighhhh

later.
your one day wait is gonna be worthwhile, because i've come to realised that after everything and everyone, you're all i've always wanted. you're the one i want to go back to at the end of the day, over and over again. nothing more, nothing less.
what a difference a day makes.

threading on very thin ice again really need to stop playing with fire!

i'm incoherent even to myself, how do i expect others to understand me? :(

silly boy, has it never occurred to you that i may the one with a change of heart?
two unexpected phone calls tonight, one from you and one from a friend in an exotic island. both got me thinking.
i should have put you on a higher priority, but i didn't.
i should be the one standing by you when you need me, but i'm not doing my job well.
i should made time for you, but i didn't.
and here i am rethinking what i want from you, what sort of relationship we can both settle for
being with you wasn't easy, and little did i know letting you go is gonna be much harder.

"Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused wanna ask you if you love me
But I don't wanna seem so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming

In this california king bed
We're 10,000 miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king"

"If you are brave enough to say 'goodbye', life will reward you with a new 'hello'" -Coelho
The problem is i'm not brave enough to say goodbye to you. A part of me is still desparately clinging onto you with my every breath. I wish love is easy sometimes.